Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Full Heart

Please beware that right now I am completely full of emotions so this post is going to be intense. I just got a swift kick in the pants emotionally. I'm wasting precious time with my children worrying about getting my house in order and the things that I need to do. I've forgotten how to take a day and just spend it entirely with my children. I recently came across a blog of a mother who lost her child. How humbling. I am so incredibly thankful to, at least not yet and hopefully never, have not been faced with such a challenge and unbelievable struggle. I'm still crying now writing this entry. I feel ashamed at how much time I have wasted. My children are my world and there is nothing wrong with that. It's okay for me to spend all day with them and neglect other things once in a while. I've had this perfect housewife scenario in my head and since I haven't been able to accomplish it I've felt as though I have failed so miserably. Yet I look into my children's eyes and I know I haven't failed. I love them so much. My time is best spent with them. They won't be small very much longer and I want to just cherish every minute with them. I will not allow distractions to the most important part of my life, my family.

4 comments:

THE BLAIRS said...

You are right. There is a big problem in the world with what the world thinks is "important" and what is really important. And you have figured it out.. Its far more important to show love to your children, spend time with them and appreciate the time you have together. Then worry about the dishes being done, the floor being picked up and the kitchen being moped. There is a time for that.. BUT ITS NOT NOW. I love this saying "CLEANING THE HOUSE WHILE CHILDREN ARE GROWING, IS LIKE SHOVELING SNOW WHEN ITS STILL SNOWING".. The snow will eventually melt and the kids will eventually grow up and move out.. Spend you time wisely by enjoying those precious moments for just like our moms have said, "enjoy ever minute because they grow up so fast."

Josh n Betsie said...

i agree. You are a wonderful mom and I have that same thing in my head...I need to have the house perfect! No so! my husband will love me anyway

Tiff said...

Amen!! You are seriously a fantastic mom! Just keep up the great work!

The Coleman Family said...

AWW rachel, you are an awesome mommy!!! i know what you mean about that though, and i apprecaite the conversation we had a few weeks ago, about what president monson said that the toys and mess will fade! it is sad bc i look at wyatt and he is a little man starting to tell me what he wants instead of crying, and piper has only been here a few months and i still cant believe she is here.
Live goes by to fast to worry about the small things, like people like us, or why are they not my friend... or when will school be done, you know my new moto Live in the todays not the tomorrows!
love that moto!!!

Mr .Helper

Mr .Helper
He loves to help, here he is helping to paint our master bathroom!

Our "Kit Kat"

Our "Kit Kat"
She's growing up so fast!